Midnight Thoughts

Memelukmu hari ini bukan berarti akan memelukmu dikemudian hari. Menggenggam tanganmu hari ini bukan berarti akan menggenggam tanganmu dikemudian hari Menemanimu disini bukan berarti akan menemanimu dikemudian hari. Aku mungkin saja memiliki ragamu disini, namun tidak hatimu. Hatimu selalu saja tau siapa pemiliknya yang sesungguhnya.  Menyisahkan aku yang entah tak tau kau simpan dibelahan hati yang mana, mungkin ada. Namun tak sebanyak pemilik hatimu yang sesungguhnya. Kau memintaku untuk berjalan bersamamu ke masa depan, namun kau lupa sebenarnya untuk siapa kau janjikan masa depanmu itu. Memberiku harapan disaat masa depan yang kau minta bersamaku, kau bangun untuk dia. Sudahlah, jangan egois. Kau pun tau, tidak ada yang bisa kau harapkan dariku.  Tersadar ini terasa sangat sia-sia. Namun, hatiku sudah kau ambil. Aku tak bisa berbuat apa-apa. Mau meminta hatiku kembali pun rasanya aku tak bisa, kau hancurkan ia sehingga ia lupa caranya untuk...

I learned that things sometimes Doesn't go the way you planned it I learned that things you want Might not be things you needed I learned that loving someone Doesn't mean you have to have That person I learned that loving someone It means seeing them happy Even if it's without you I learned that almost is  Never enough I learned that if it's wasn't because of you I wouldn't be at this point of my life When i realized this is supposed to happened I learned that letting things go Ain't easy I learned that you gotta get through Some pain before you reach your happines I learned that no rain No flowers I learned that you,  Were meant to stay for a while Not forever

Last night i told him i miss his voice, Then he said "listen to Lost Stars by Adam Levine, he sounded just like me"  i laughed and make fun of it. Tonight i listen to Lost Stars then  it reminded me of him.

And for once again, you fooled me You walked away and never looked back Leaving me with so many questions What did i do wrong? What was my mistake? Just tell me why What was the reason you left this time? That day, when you came back, i actually thought that you gonna stay But who am i kidding, for you I'm just a girl that dying for your attention A girl that desperately in love with you  That actually thought this time you gonna change You never took me seriously You played me like i'm such a game And for once again I lost

sometimes in life you might gonna have to face some massive rock ahead, you feel like you couldn't find a way to get rid of that rock you tried so hard, you really working on it but it doesn't work that rock still there  and just after you thought you doing so well, and you might think it'll work this time then again, it doesn't work, you still can't get rid of that rock in front of you. then you thinking you wanna just give up, you tried everything and still it doesn't work. you thinking of giving up, you thinking this is where your life is gonna ruin, this is where you gonna fall and fail forever. but, it's not. It is just a beginning of everything, don't lose faith. do not lose your hope. you might be feeling down for a while, but do not let that take the best of you, you are better than that and you can do it. life, could be tricky sometimes, but do not lose faith believe in yourself.

I want to be with someone who dream of doing everything in life, and nothing on a rainy Sunday afternoon. Love is diving headfirst into someone else's confusion and finding that it all make sense. My atom love your atoms, it's chemistry Love could be labeled poison and we'd drink it anyways. It's not the fear of losing them that scares us,  it's that we have given them so many of our pieces that we fear losing ourselves when they are gone. Do not fall in love with me for i will break your heart long before you realize you were going to break mine. We so often want to love work but we are  fighting currents of our hearts that flow a different way. WORDS WILL SCRATCH MORE HEARTS THAN SWORDS Obsession is not love, infatuation is not love, when someone ignores you or treats you poorly, carelessly, or with indifference that's not love that's a lack of love...